Body image…

I saw a beautiful picture of Marilyn Monroe the other day on Instagram.  She was such a beautiful woman.  I love how her stomach wasn’t perfectly flat.  Now this is one part of my body I don’t like.  But when I look at her in this picture I say to myself “What is wrong with me?”  and it’s nothing.  Body image and how we view ourselves in todays society is so different than it was many years ago.  So much pressure is put on women and even men to look perfect and to  have that perfect body.  It’s hard but we should be proud of who we are and ourselves.  I blame the media and some reality shows for a lot of this.

Now I myself have to work more on loving me for me and not worry so much about the silly things that I don’t like about myself.

As always: Keep smiling!!!  (:




Moving forward…

How is it that it’s easier for some to move forward than it is for others?  Some people have thicker skin than others.  I wish my skin was thicker and I could move forward faster.  Sometimes a certain situation can resinate with me for a long time.  Some people or things I just can’t let go of.  I see them for who they are and hope that when that “butterfly” leaves that it will find its way back.  I don’t know how some people do it – the “drop and plop.”   For me it’s hard-I’m trying hard to build that shell, but, this is who I am and I have to accept the fact that I’m an overly sensitive, caring soul who simply is who she is and probably will always be this way.

As always: Keep smiling!!! (:



The Love our animals give us…

It’s wonderful how our pets can make us feel, how we can suddenly smile and be happy when we’re around our furbabies.  It’s been proven that they relieve stress, and that your blood pressure can drop just by touching them.  This old girl pictured is my Zoe.  She’s the matriarch of the three dogs I have.  She’s been in our lives for almost 17 years.

Zoe has always been an “old soul.”  She makes me laugh with her snorting and funny noises she always makes when walking.  She snores louder than a human and sometimes it can be felt through the floor.

I know that she is coming to the end of her journey in life.  She sleeps more and lately has been getting confused with daily life.  She’s mostly blind and deaf now-but still keeps “kicking.”  She’s been through surgery to remove cancer and still keeps putting up the good fight.  Zoe has truly been a blessing in our family’s  lives and I cherish every moment with her.  She’s a stubborn “old bat” who refuses to give up on life.

We should all learn lessons from our beloved furbabies.  They just want to be loved and have so much to give to us-especially in this crazy world we live in.  Zoe is the laid back soul that I have needed in my life.

All I can say is keep on fighting Zoe-you have lots more in you I know it!

As always: keep smiling! 🙂



A “what if” moment (creepy)

In light of the sexual harassment issue that has unfolded I just want to share a story of what happened to me recently.  Now I’m not sure what anyone would label it -but I”ll call it “Creepy guy violating my space and peace.  

Last week I was on my usual walk at the trail I always go to -which almost always has children and mothers playing at the park and walking on it too.  Well, this was a rainy day-so no children playing and very few walkers, runners and bicyclists.  While walking I felt a sense of uneasiness, couldn’t put my finger on it at this time-but decided to shorten my walk and head back to the park area.  As I got back I went under a gazebo to keep dry and just breathe for a few.  During this time a woman walked by with her dog and from afar I could see this very tall man just looking over at me.  I didn’t think anything of it at the time, so I stayed under the gazebo and relaxed a little more.  He proceeded to walk over and sit down at a bench next to the gazebo.  I looked over and he was staring at me.  An uneasy feeling overtook me so I began to walk again.  As I passed him he looked at me and said “hi”, I said “hi” back because I didn’t want to come off as rude.

Well as I was walking toward the playground area to another part of the trail- I got a weird feeling that I was being watched.  And sure as shit-this man who was about 100 yards away was standing up from the bench and looking right at me.  So, at this time I knew something wasn’t right.  He was really creeping me out.  I calmly walked around a different way and went to my car.  I removed my purse from the trunk and changed my shoes.  What I saw at that time was a black car with very dark tinted windows and the engine running.  So, I threw my purse and phone into the front seat and headed to the bathroom-but went a round about way.  As I was in there I realized I didn’t have my phone-I always carry my phone.  Luckily there was someone else in the bathroom-but part of me was thinking – what if it’s him.  And then I was thinking maybe it’s the other woman’s car that was running while she was in the bathroom.  I remained calm and did my thing… Then I left the bathroom another way as not to be spotted.  Well, I saw this car still sitting outside the bathroom area and in my head I’m screaming “oh shit!”   What if this creep grabs me and I have no phone on me and no one else is around to see me.  Well, he started to drive away when I approached my car.  And I thought “phew” I escaped a bad situation.   I proceeded to get into my car and got myself together and left.  Well, as I was leaving the parking lot -there he was sitting on the road as I pulled out.  He rolled his window down and looked right at  me and then pulled away.  I couldn’t get to him fast enough to get his Plate number on his car.  At this time I became very aware of my surroundings and then proceeded to go to the coffee shop to relax and write.

During this time at the coffee shop, I shared my experience with my mom on the phone, I wasn’t shaken up at the time-just “weirded out.”  But as I shared my story with a few other friends the next day I started to realize that this was more serious than I had lead myself to believe.  A close friend of mine was thinking maybe he was filming you from the car -taking pictures, who knows, maybe he was  a “sex trafficker.”  These were her insights from what I had told her.

Anyway, it’s been a weird experience and it didn’t hit me until a few days ago that this could’ve been a bad situation.  This is explaining my two nightmares I had in one night, along with panic attacks that followed.  I have since gone back to the park and walked-I will not let this situation dictate my life.  I’m just way more aware of my surroundings, and letting people who are close to me know where I’m at.  A part of me is still uneasy-but I know that I’m ok, even though he knows my car and what I look like -I’m trying to be strong and not let him get into my head.

As always: Keep smiling!!!  (: